[ zelkov is silent for a moment, considering this. ]
On the whole, I have always considered you to be a person of relatively sound judgment... so I will confess to being at something of a loss as to why you allowed things with him to get so far out of hand over the past weeks.
[ he shakes his head. ]
I am more sympathetic to your actions during the trial itself, as I was under the impression that you were attempting to keep him placated and prevent him from using his destructive capabilities against everyone present.
The only reason I did not kill him myself after the first week was because I was wary of his powers — the extent of which were unknown to me — and the possibility that he would find a way to bring others down with him. So that calculation, at least, is one I understand.
[It's valid criticism, and Temenos readily accepts it.]
That had been my intention this entire time. To placate him- keep him close to me so I could get a feel for his motivations. I fully knew what he was capable of by the time he acted, but I genuinely did not expect him to act. And if he did, I had hoped that he would at least leave everyone else out of it.
But...I was unaware of his interactions with Vergilius. He never spoke to me about them. [He still doesn't know what to make of any of that, to be perfectly honest.] This is to say nothing of what he did to Haruka, Xiao and Beelzebub. Had I known he would do that, I would have never let it get to that point.
[Crossing his arms, he brings a hand to his chin.]
I was not blind to his nature nor his bloodlust. If anything, I imagine I understood it better than many here. [Not enough, obviously. But that's probably the only reason he's alive right now.] We both seek thrills on the opposite sides of the same coin, and though I found him loathsome, I also found it difficult to not resonate with him in some manner.
Perhaps this is a surprising confession to have come from me, but I felt it needed to be spoken.
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But while we are on the subject of apologies, I owe you one of my own. My conduct over the weekend was unprofessional at best and appalling at worst.
Rest assured, I intend to take a step back during the next trial proceedings, should they come to pass.
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On the whole, I have always considered you to be a person of relatively sound judgment... so I will confess to being at something of a loss as to why you allowed things with him to get so far out of hand over the past weeks.
[ he shakes his head. ]
I am more sympathetic to your actions during the trial itself, as I was under the impression that you were attempting to keep him placated and prevent him from using his destructive capabilities against everyone present.
The only reason I did not kill him myself after the first week was because I was wary of his powers — the extent of which were unknown to me — and the possibility that he would find a way to bring others down with him. So that calculation, at least, is one I understand.
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That had been my intention this entire time. To placate him- keep him close to me so I could get a feel for his motivations. I fully knew what he was capable of by the time he acted, but I genuinely did not expect him to act. And if he did, I had hoped that he would at least leave everyone else out of it.
But...I was unaware of his interactions with Vergilius. He never spoke to me about them. [He still doesn't know what to make of any of that, to be perfectly honest.] This is to say nothing of what he did to Haruka, Xiao and Beelzebub. Had I known he would do that, I would have never let it get to that point.
[Crossing his arms, he brings a hand to his chin.]
I was not blind to his nature nor his bloodlust. If anything, I imagine I understood it better than many here. [Not enough, obviously. But that's probably the only reason he's alive right now.] We both seek thrills on the opposite sides of the same coin, and though I found him loathsome, I also found it difficult to not resonate with him in some manner.
Perhaps this is a surprising confession to have come from me, but I felt it needed to be spoken.